Looking over our old lifting logs. *facepalm* You know, the ones from the beginning? Seems we started around August 2010. But we were kind of lost until January 2011.  

It kind of puts my lifting into perspective for me. I’m always the first one to snap at someone for calling me “strong”. I’ve been hearing it since I started lifting (as most women do). People see a chick and it is “Oh wow, you’re so strong!” Yeah, thanks -_- I mean, thank you for not telling me I am weak as shit and all… but c’mon. 

I’ve been hard on myself from the start. Though I guess most people are? I think “You only have a 210 squat? 285 deadlift? What are you doing!?” but then today I realized I’ve only been *seriously* lifting for a year. That sounds decent to me. Especially when you take into consideration when I started just doing air squats I was FAILING them? 

Compared to your average chick, sure I’m strong. But I want to be compared to people who lift and still be considered strong. I don’t want the “you’re a chick who lifts weights? You’re soooo strong!” response.

I don’t know what I am getting at here… 

I guess that I shouldn’t be so hard on myself?

That I am doing the best I can?

That some people might actually think this is strong and that is ok? (hell, a year ago I was that person)

That I am getting stronger and I have a 1.5 years worth of notebooks to prove that? (Oh and ya know, my lifts themselves.)

That we are always toughest on ourselves?

Ok. I’m done rambling…